It's easy to be positive when things are going well.  You don't have to think hard to say "oh yeah, this, that, and the other thing were good today."  

But there are some days--days when you know immediately it should've been a two cup morning, you shouldn't have left the house, and all you REALLY wanna be doing is taking an afternoon nap--when positive just doesn't feel possible.  Because everything is lining up to suck.  These are days when you REALLY have to scrape the bottom of the barrel to come up with something positive to focus on, and even then, they're such minuscule things, they hardly seem like objects of focus in the first place.  

Stuff like...
  • It's raining, so the new trees I planted will be happy.
  • I got to read a couple of chapters of a good book while sitting at the chiropractor's office.
  • I didn't get hit by a truck on my way to work (which on this kind of day feels like less of a positive because you really wish the ground would just open up and swallow you and where did you put that incantation?)

Oh. My. God.  Y'all it is such a Monday with a capital M.  

I am absolutely not going to sit here and list all the reasons why I'm struggling with the positive today.  That would be giving all those things way more importance than they ought to have.  But...yeah, I'm feeling pretty frayed at the edges just now.  

So I'm going to apply the same kind of rule to this positivity thing that I do to writing.  See, I spent YEARS deluding myself that I could train myself to write EVERY DAY.  And it was a goal I always ultimately failed on because the truth is that life happens and sometimes you just can't write.  So I finally settled on a goal of writing at least 20 days out of every 30.  This has worked out really well for me, and it's a goal I can meet and usually exceed.

I'm not setting a particular number of days out of every month to be positive.  That feels silly and kind of forced. But if I have an off day where I'm struggling to find the positive, I'm going to make a vow to try and not allow it to turn into two in a row, to get back on that positivity train when I get up the next day and not lug the emotional baggage of the previous day's suck with me.  Which is, in a way, I suppose a practice of the idea of letting go that is way more prevalent in Eastern philosophies

10/01/2012 7:57pm

There's always something, no matter how little. It would have been an even worse day if you'd had nothing to read while waiting at the doctor's :-)

Claudine Gresham
10/02/2012 8:10pm

You will always have a cheering section!


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